Rescued From Near Death

I am lucky to be here doing well and to be alive today.
The crimes committed against me should have killed me by now.
My own addictions were at times harmful and powerful.
For some reason my life has changed as if I am living another life.

The dark days feel so recent, yet like another lifetime ago.
Circumstances are different, yet I still relive that life in my mind.
Why do those tragic days and moments still haunt me now.
I forget these things for weeks and then randomly ponder the past.

Thank you for saving me, I never could have escaped alone.
My self imposed destruction had me on a path to an early death.
So many preventable and unpreventable events were there.
For some reason I am still here and am stronger than I ever was.

Now I live my life without many regrets in a better place.
While negative circumstances still exist and I still fight my demons,
My outlook has changed and my future looks bright.
My hard work now is going to bring even better times soon.

As I prepare to achieve major goals within the next year,
I am preparing my mind to handle the responsibilities of my future.
No longer am I an angst filled teenager on the verge of death.
I am now a strong woman who is going towards the life I have wanted.